Sunday, October 30, 2011

Listen to UR VOICE

I didn't know that searching for the things that you love to do can be a hard thing to do.

Why I'm saying this, because everyone have their own adventure and dreams. Everything

just needs its timing, what, where and how.

Today I learnt that I like writing. I discovered the joy and pleasure of expressing my

inner voice onto a paper. The feelings, the joy, the wonderful emotions when I am holding a pen . You should try it you know!

I beg you to please take time to listen to your own inner voice, since it's your life. You've got only one chance to live in this world, so live your life to the fullest!

I wonder if this desire does come from my heart or is it just to please everyone else?


Well,the still search goes on. No matter how hard it will take, I'll do anything!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

M.U.M.

I'm going to sound really crazy and brat XD but I can't hold it any longer.
My mum is such a difficult person to live with, I don't know if she knows this. But she is.

I think it's way more difficult to manage her. GOSH! Why is she always being superficial and trying to win in every single 'arguments' and conversation we have?

I'm not that low and I'm not that stupid you know, please at least cut me some slack. I deserve it at least. I know she's like the Queen in the house, but that doesn't mean she has the right to control people like her children up to the maximum!!!!!

I'm tired, sick and so frustrated with her. I can't imagine taking care of her in the future. She's just like her own mother, who happens to be my grandmother too.

Both have that common annoying characteristic, always want to win in everything that they do!!!

I don't like having a Quuen Bee Mum, I mean there's no such thing as a Queen Bee Mum. I hate having conversation with her!!!! It's like there's a negative energy been directed between us. That makes me feels like it's always going to repel. On the contrary it does occur!!

URGHHHHH I feel like I'm living a hell under a roof with her. She's the most annoying mum in the world! I hate it!!! (I can't say I hate her, it's too harsh)

Monday, October 3, 2011

Heart is to be broken

I'm fine if you don't want to talk to me anymore. Maybe be I'm just being paranoid to which I am.

All I ever wanted from you is to be my good friend.

I like you. And, I think I'm falling 'in love' with you. I knew you too little and had met you too soon. I think it's not bad to say 'I like you'

I wish you were mine. And I can be yours. But this is just crap! Darn, why did u had to get into a relationship so early. Can't you at least wait until you get a good decent job?

God knows what's best for me?

I'm sick of having numerous inappropriate crushes with guys. I can't stand having my heart broken lots of times. I'm sick of unrequited love. I'm sick of seeing guys with their girl, call me a jealous psycho but I just can't help it.

It makes me feel like I want to give up on love totally!!! Argh!!!!!!!!
I just hate love. love love love.

Why can't there just be love with no heart breaks, no more tears and no more cry. Even for a loser like me, I will still keep hoping for someday true love will find me. Let love find me and not vice-versa.

Peace!

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Law of attraction

I guess I can't be having this feelings to you then
sigh..I wish it would be true.

I'm not a princess either nor some super model but I am me and i love me just the way I am.

Nobody can change me only I can do that

In the end I have to learn to love me for who else is going to love me first right?

I'm trying to have an attractive life, interesting life and 'get a life'!

I am me and still only me.
Thank you for letting me live and giving me my own space. I don't like living with guilt and conflicts. What's even more important is that I don't have to keep dwelling on my dislikes of you. Thank you for letting me live. Don't bring disgrace to your family's name. I regretted talking to you in the first place. For your own peace, I don't keep any more animosity towards you. You can be relieve now. GOOD BYE FOREVER. Sayonara.

only u can love urself, nobody can love u if u can't love urself first. Only then the right person will come.

I can never be satisfied when things don't seem to go the way I wanted it to be, but it's not always healthy that way.
kdg2 terifkir jugak apa salah aku sampai aku boleg buat budak tu jadi sebegitu. pelik la. adakah aku ni terlalu lembut? or i'm I too harsh on her?
the answer is just don't give a damn! pedulikan aje. they are just KIDS who just started to learn abt life. Life is not like a rainbow on the other side of course. learn to grow up girls. not everything going to go ur own way. Welcome to Life!
· · 8 hours ago


That is from my facebook status!!
Grrrr
I'm freaking mad with this gurl..i mean WTF does she think she is. She could actually address me politely. Guess again, she ain't doing that. No matter how many times I tried talking her out politely like 'friend-to-friend' terms.

I guess some people can't change for their own good, some can. I've learnt that about human beings

I'm in love with Audioslave. I'm into rock music from the start. Rocl songs suits my mental state more than my soul In fact, it hv nothing to do wit it.

Screw that girl for good~~ if she doesn't want to change be i\that way. Who needs you anyway punk?!

I'm saying bad things today because of her messages I'd received today.

Facebook oh why oh why...

Another charming day...

These are just some stuff happening within this week

I think ppl can't run away from their first crush, it will always stick in your mind forever. I knew I just saw my crush a couple of days ago, the feelings came back. It's tough to get rid of it. So I just have 2 distract my mind on something else

you have wonderful family and friends
your friends care about you so much in every way
that you are so blind to see all that
how ungrateful you are to God
Don't wait until God take them away from you
Remember they aren't going to live with us forever
For now, you may take them for granted
but as they get older it's too late to say 'I'm sorry'
they're gone
So be good to them and appreciate them
Show it not just say it.

Kids these days are lot scarier comapre to my days. they would rather kill themselves than trying to search for that 'ight' or solutions. Instead this person chose to take their own life. To make it worse, they want to do it because of you (by all means me!)
Please please don't ever do that. What good can that bring? Have you ever think about your family, friends, girlfriends or boyfriends, spouse etc Guess what? if u do kill yourself chances are your family or friends will blame themselves for your death. The pain will be there forever. So think first before you do it!

It's not great it's not nice. Have you ever thought about what kind of journey you will take when you die?
will it be good or will it be bad. Nevertheless, suicide is B-A-D BAD.
People anyone whoever reads this. It's not worth it I tell you.
Remember God loves you, He created you so you could always refer to him, ask him, talk to him, yearn for his love and guidance. His your Creator, your Best Friend, your Parent and your Light etc
He is there for you whenever you need help assistance guidance
Ask for Him to show you the way from your problems, difficulties and disputes.
Only God has all the answers, yes we do have answers too but God will always know better than all of us.
So pray to HIM.
God loves YOU. Remember that.