Realiti Kes Murtad di Malaysia. Orang Islam Wajib Baca.

Setiap orang islam WAJIB mempertahankan akidah masing-masing. Ingat azab seksa yang sgt dahsyat bagi mereka yang murtad.

OPEN YOUR EYES AND REALIZE SOMETHING HERE: Whatever you do in life is because of Allah S.W.T. Islam is a religion that must be place ABOVE ON TOP of everything else in life. Including your parents, your husband and your family. But that doesn't mean you are not bound to obligation and responsibilities as a daughter/son and wife. What I'm I saying here?
As a Muslim you must fulfill your responsibilities duties to them even though they object to you fr being a Muslim. It takes patience to be able to convince your parents that you are converted to being a Muslim. For the husband who is a Christian and the wife is a Muslim, the wife should divorce him! For the sake of Allah S.W.T. do you want to be punish and be burnt?


‘Pernah dengar cerita Aisyah Bukhari yang murtad tak lama dulu? Suratkhabar banyak menutup kes ini kononnya untuk menjaga perkauman, tak nak terjadi kacau bilau. Kes Aisyah yang murtad dan banyak kes murtad lain ditutup sedemikian rupa atas alasan bercinta, ikutboyfriend.
Cerita yang akan saya bawa ini agak panjang tetapi sekiranya kamu seorang Islam yang peka dan sayangkan agama kita Islam, buatlah sesuatu, paling kurang fowardkan email ni kepada saudara kita yang tak tahu menahu. Ataupun selemah-lemahnya, berdoa agar kita semua serta saudara-saudara kita terselamat daripada fitnah akhir zaman yang paling besar ini.
Ini bukan cerita rekaan saya tetapi hanya petikan dari ceramah yang saya dengar dari mulut peguambela kes ini Zulkifli Nordin di Madrasah Hidayah. Murtad dikalangan orang Melayu kini sudah menjadi ancaman kepada kita. Indeks pencemaran akidah mengikut jabatan statistik dan perangkaan Tahun 1989 aje, 4776 orang Melayu mohon tukar nama dari Melayu kepada bukan Melayu atas alasan keluar dari Islam.

Tahun 1997, bila Saari Bustamah mengambil alih jawatan mufti dari Datuk Hashim Yahya, perkara pertama yang disentuh adalah murtad. Menurutnya sehingga Julai 1997, 3,000 orang murtad di KL sahaja. Tahun 1998 saja, 516 orang sudah murtad. Aisyah bukan kes pertama murtad, sebelum ini dah beratus kes timbul tetapi ditutup oleh pihak tertentu.
Setakat kes Aisyah, dah 40 fail murtad dikendalikan oleh saudara kita Zulkifli Nordin. Mengapa kes Aisyah ini kita rasa ralat sangat? Kes ini satu simbol yang tunjukkan pada kita orang Melayu. Sistem pertahanan akidah kita amat rapuh. Akidah kita diserang ditubi dari segala sudut. Yang kita tak nampak dengan menggunakan system perundangan dan kehakiman kita sendiri.
Kes ini boleh dilihat dari 2 sudut.
1. Bagaimana orang macam Aisyah boleh murtad
2. Bagaimana orang kafir laknatullah boleh menggunakan sistem hakiman kita untuk merampas anak orang Islam untuk dimurtadkan?
Apa yang berlaku kepada Haji Bukhari setelah 25 tahun didik anak dengan pengisian Islam yang hebat. Sedang dia mengimamkan sembahyang terawih di masjid tahun 1997 anak dia sedang dimurtadkan dirumah.
Aisyah adalah gadis Melayu biasa yang didedahkan dengan ilmu yang sepatutnya. Dalam keadaan macam tu, dia takkan murtad. Dihantar ke sekolah agama, dia belajar hingga tingkatan 6 atas dan boleh melayakkan diri jadi ustazah kalau dia hendak, dan layak melanjutkan ke peringkat Universiti Al Azhar kalau dia hendak . Dia dibesarkan dalam suasana yang bapanya imam. Datuknya juga imam yang dah berpuluh tahun imam Haji Tahir. Dia juga hafal surah Yasin. Dalam ertikata, tahu ayat apa, surah ke berapa yang dibacanya, ayat apa yang jadi azimat, semua dia tahu. Itu hebatnya Aisyah. Surah Sajadah pun dia hafal … Masuk ITM dia terlibat dalam gerakan Islam. Dia didedahkan dengan gerakan Islam, dia tahu kelemahan-kelemahan Bible. Dari segi keterampilan, dia budak perempuan Melayu seperti biasa, pakai tudung dengan baju kurung bunga-bunga. Takde apa yang pelik pada dia, duduk di lembah keramat AU5C. Kakak dia pun macam itu juga keterampilannya. Tiap-tiap hari telefon bapanya lapor isu terkini. 2 tahun di KL begitu. Hari terakhir dia telefon 19 Nov 1997,
‘Assalamualaikum ayah! Ni Intan (nama manja) cakap. Intan nak bagitahu, Intan dah kristian.’
Bayangkan hati seorang bapa. Kita sendiri heran macamana dia boleh murtad. Aisyah adalah simbol anak Melayu yang telah dididik dengan begitu rupa boleh murtad. Apa yang Haji Bukhari boleh buat? Airmata sahaja modal dia. Masuk TV menangis, keluar radio menangis, pergi forum menangis apa yang dia boleh buat? Semua dokumen mahkamah akan jadi bahan arkib termasuk p ermohonan kafir laknatullah itu minta Aisyah dibebaskan untuk dimurtadkan ..
Butir asal permohonan.. ….
Permohonan ini dibuat oleh Lennet Teoh Hui Leong seorang peguam Cina Kristian. (Read Herbes Corpes bawah bab 36 kanun acara jenayah). Tujuan untuk membebaskan seorang yang didakwa ditahan secara salah. Sebarang permohonan seperti ini perlu bagi sebab mengapa didakwa tahan secara salah. Permohonan dibuat bawah bab 36 atas alasan Article 11 Perlembagaan Persekutuan. Iaitu hak kebebasan beragama. Tiada langsung soal kahwin timbul. Permohonan tu menyatakan, perenggan 6, bertarikh 28 November 1997 di Makamah Tinggi Malaya Kuala Lumpur bahagian jenayah.
Sebab yang dia beri, ‘Saya Lennet Teoh Hui Leong telah dilantik oleh Nur Aisyah untuk memberi nasihat kepadanya berkenaan dengan pertukaran agamanya kepada Kristian dan atas arahannya saya telah menyediakan surat sumpah untuk Nur Aisyah menolak dan meninggalkan agama Islam.’
Perenggan 23: ‘Saya Lennet Teoh percaya bahawa Nur Aisyah sedang dikurung secara salah oleh keluarganya. Saya percaya tindakan ibubapa, abangnya dan bapa saudaranya telah melanggar hak kebebasan Nur Aisyah menganut agama pilihannya iaitu Kristian Khatolik’.
Kita tak boleh buat apa-apa sebab article 11 Perlembagaan Persekutuan menyatakan mana-mana warganegara Malaysia yang telah cukup umur (18tahun) berhak mutlak menukar gamanya. Itulah perlembagaan kita yang memerdekakan orang Melayu kita tahun 1957. Perlembagaan itulah juga yang menjerut kita sendiri. Adakah anak cucu kita akan selamat dengan perlembagaan itu? Bila berlaku pertembungan antara hukum syara’ dengan undang-undang sivil, undang-undang syara’ akan terbatal. Maksud agama rasmi kita Islam adalah acara-acara rasmi hendaklah dibuat mengikut cara Islam. Contohnya perlantikan sultan, rasmi parlimen dll. Tak lebih dari itu. Bab kehidupan, politik, ekonomi…. semua tak termasuk.
Article 4 pula menyatakan: ‘Mana-mana undang-undang yang bertentangan yang bercanggah dengan perlembagaan ini adalah batal dan tidak sah. Ini termasuklah hukum syara’.
Contoh kes Hartina Haji Kamarudin.
Pada masa ceramah ini dibuat, Haji Kamarudin ada dalam lokap, didakwa mencederakan seorang Hindu kafir laknatullah kerana memurtadkan anaknya.. Anak yang dibela selama 18 tahun dengan begitu susah payah datang ke Rumah dalam keadaan Hindu.
Haji Kamarudian seorang penjual sate di Perak. Beliau lepaskan anaknya selepas 18 tahun ke KL untuk cari kerja. Tak terlintas langsung di kepalanya anaknya akan murtad. Tak sampai 9 bulan, Hartina balik ke restoran bapanya dalam keadaan Hindu dengan nandek kat dahi . Bukan itu saja. Anak yang dimanjakan begitu rupa balik mencabar bapanya, bawa boyfriend dan kawan-kawan boyfriendnya sambil berpeluk-p eluk dalam keadaan dia pun dah Hindu dengan nandek. Haji Kamarudin takek si kafir tu kat tengkuk, menggelupur dia depan kedai tu.
Haji Kamarudin juga dipelupur oleh kawan-kawan si Hindu tu sampai nak pengsan. Adik lelaki Hartina umur 16 tahun turut kena belasah kerana nak menyelamatkan akidah kakaknya depan kedai tempat bapanya meniaga.
Apa Hartina buat masa tu? Hartina papah kekasihnya dan biarkan bapanya menggelupur sendirian. Tak cukup dengan itu, dia pergi ke balai polis buat report bapak dia pukul boyfriend dia. 14 hari Haji Kamarudin dengan adik lelaki Hartina merengkok dalam lokap sebab report anak kesayangannya yang mempertahankan kekasih Hindunya. Tak cukup dengan itu disaman pula bapanya 3 juta. Remuk hati seorang bapa yang diheret ke penjara kerana anak sendiri. Tak cukup lagi, dia telah menghina bapanya dengan menukar nama Hartina Haji Kamarudin kepada Nivasni Rajeswari. Nama Hindu.
Semasa masih terlantar kat hospital (akibat dipukul binatang Hindu laknatullah ), Haji Kamarudin ditangkap polis semula sebab Hindu laknatullah ditembak oleh seorang yang tak dikenali. Jadi, Haji Kamarudin, anaknya dan anak saudaranya kena kurung masuk lokap kerana menjadi suspek utama kes tembakan tersebut. Anak yang ditatang begitu rupa akhirnya menyebabkan dia merana dalam keadaan hina di dalam negara yang negara Islam!! Haji Kamarudin juga dikenakan berbagai tuduhan. Setakat itu saja, 4 tuduhan.
Yusof Qardawi dalam kitabnya menyatakan hendaklah mempertahan akidah hatta dengan nyawa sekalipun. Itu yang Haji Kamarudin buat dalam mempertahankan hukum Allah, dilokap sedemikian rupa.
Lagi satu kes lain saudara baru kita, nama Yusof bin Abdullah , nama asal Hindunya Santana. Ada seorang isteri, namanya apa entah.Ada anak lelaki, nama Sunjay kalau tak silap. Usia 2 tahun masa tu. Ajak isterinya masuk Islam. Abangnya telah lebih 20 tahun masuk Islam. Isterinya kata ?eh!? Yusof bawa anaknya sekali masuk Islam dengan nama Mohamad Syazani bin Yusof. Dia hidup 2 beranak tu selama 2 tahun. Lepas 2 tahun si minaci datang semula dan bawak lari anak ini ke KL dengan boyfriend barunya.Yusof tak tahu apa nak buat, dia minta mahkamah syariah Alor Setar keluarkan perintah penjagaan hak ke atas anaknya.
Mahkamah pun bagi. Dia pun datang ke KL dan ambil balik budak tu. Si emak ni pergi mahkamah tinggi KL mintak hak jaga anak. Mahkamah tinggi bagi pada si minachi ni. Heran sungguh. Bila si minachi ni tak dapat nak ambil balik budak tu, dia pergi report polis. Tahu polis buat apa? Cari Yusof dan tangkap! (padahal Yusof dapat hak penjagaan daripada mahkamah syariah Alor Setar). Yusof masuk lokap 8 hari.
Lepas tu polis ambil balik budak tu kasi pada emaknya. Hari ini, budak tu kembali jadi Hindu. Tak cukup dengan itu, kurang ajarnya si minachi ni, dia minta pulak mahkamah tinggi batalkan perintah jagaan anak yang dikeluarkan oleh makamah Syariah Alor Setar yang diberi pada Yusof.
Dalam kes Suzie Teoh, seorang budak perempuan dari Kelantan umur 16 Tahun telah peluk Islam atas kerelaan sendiri. Bapa dia tak suka, lepas tu saman anak sendiri dan saman Majlis Agama Islam Negeri Kelantan, heret anak dia ke mahkamah persekutuan. Dia mohon pada makamah, agar istiharkan anak dia masuk Islam tak sah.
Masa tu, Tun Salleh Abas yang jadi hakim. Beliau seorang yang alim dan warak. Bila dihadapkan dengan kes Suzie Teoh, menangis Tun Salleh Abas. Terpaksa buat perisytiharan. ‘Dibawah Perlembagaan Persekutuan, hak seorang anak tertakluk dibawah jagaan ibubapanya selagi belum cukup 18 tahun. Kalau nak tukar agama, kena minta kebenaran ibu bapanya. Semasa Suzie Teoh masuk Islam, berumur 16 tahun. dia tak sah peluk Islam.’ Atas kearifan dan iman Tun Salleh Abas, dia simpan fail tu dalam lacinya selama 2 tahun. 2 tahun kemudian, lepas hari jadi Suzie Teoh yang ke 18 tahun, dia buka balik kes itu dan bagi peluang Suzie isytiharkan agamanya sendiri. Penuh mahkamah nak tahu kes tu; wartawan tempatan, wartawan asing semua nak dengar keputusan. Terketar-ketar budak tu. Baru umur 18 tahun. Sambil menangis, budak tu kata ‘ Saya yang arif, kekal dalam agama saya, saya masih nak nama Nur Aini.’ Maka Tun Salleh Abas pun dengan bangga mengisytiharkan Islamnya sah dengan namanya Nur Aini. Selamat akidah seorang budak. Sebab itu jugalah Tun Salleh Abas kena buang atas 5 tuduhan. Tuduhan kedua atas sebab melengahkan kes seorang budak tanpa sebab selama 2 tahun. Itulah harga yang Tun Salleh Abas terpaksa bayar.
Kes terakhir sekali yang paling teruk, kes saudara Ibrahim, isterinya Siti Solehah dan anak perempuannya usia 5 bulan mati dipancung kerana tidak mahu kembali kepada agama asalnya, Hindu. Pada malam hari Valentine 14 Februari, pada waktu anak Melayu bertukar tukar bunga di Dataran Merdeka. 3 Saudara kita mati dipancung dalam sebuah kontena demi mempertahankan agama.
Peristiwa 13 Mei tercetus apabila seorang budak Melayu dibunuh kerana dia Melayu bukan kerana dia Islam. Dalam sejarah Melayu, tiada lagi orang Melayu dibunuh kerana Islam. Semuanya sebab Melayu. Inilah pertama kali.
Jika kita sorot semula sejarah Islam Yasir, bapa kepada Amar diseret di hadapan. Amar diugut supaya tukar agama. Kalau tidak, bapanya Yasir akan dibunuh. Amar kata,’Allah hu Ahad’.. Terus Yasir kena pancung di padang pasir. Kemudiannya, Sumaiyah ibunya juga disula dari bawah tembus ke jantung. Mampu berkata ‘Allah hu Ahad’. Berlari Amar menemui Rasullullah SAW. Dan akhirnya, mengikut sejarah, Amar menjadi seorang mujahid berperang bersama Rasullullah SAW. Itu zaman puak Quraisy kafir laknatullah berkuasa. Rasullullah SAW tiada kuasa lagi pada masa itu.Rasullulah tak boleh buat apa.
Dalam kes kita, bukan sahaja Ibrahim dipancung kepalanya sehingga putus, tak cukup lagi, tangannya juga turut dipotong. Sehinggakan Majlis Agama Islam Selangor terpaksa minta masjid mandikan jenazah saudara-saudara kita yang mati syahid itu. Apalah dosa anak kecil yang berusia 5 bulan itu? Ibrahim dan Siti Solehah bukan calang-calang orang. Ibrahim seorang saintis Pakar Geologi manakala isterinya Siti Solehah, seorang Pakar Botani. Tanda-tanda syahid jelas pada ketiga mayat tersebut. Walaupun 5 hari dalam peti sejuk darah masih memancut keluar pada ketiga-tiga mayat. Bayi yang berusia 5 bulan masih mengalirkan darah hangat seperti baru mati. Peluhterpercik pada dahi mereka. Mereka dikebumikan di kubur Bukit Kiara. Kalau saudara semua tak mengalirkan air mata melihat kubur mereka bertiga terutama bayi yang berusia 5 bulan itu, mesti ada yang tak kena dengan hati kita Hebat mana kita sehingga tak boleh mempertahankan saudara kita sendiri Sedangkan Ibrahim telah melaporkan pada pihak polis dan Majlis agama yang dia diancam untuk dibunuh supaya kembali ke agama asalnya.
Dalam satu hadis yang berbentuk futuristik (masa depan), Rasulullah SAW berpesan ‘Bersegeralah kamu melakukan amalan soleh kerana akan datang kepad a umatku di suatu masa, satu fitnah yang begitu besar yang datangnya seperti satu kepingan hitam di malam gelap gelita tak nampak’. Sahabat bertanya ‘Apakah fitnah besar itu ya Rasullullah? ‘ ‘Fitnah itu adalah kamu akan lihat umatku di hari itu, di waktu itu,pada masa itu, pagi hari Islam, petang kafir. Petang Islam, pagi kafir balik.’ Sahabat bertanya lagi. ‘Mengapa begitu ya Rasullullah? ‘ Rasullullah SAW menjawab, ?Sebab dia jual agamanya dengan nilai dunia’.
Imam Ghazali pernah berkata dalam perkara ini, ‘Akan datang fitnah murtad ini dalam keadaan seperti semut hitam di atas batu hitam di malam gelap.’ Mana nampak? Kecuali kalau jiwa kita tengok satu perkara dengan cahaya keimanan.
Bagaimana gerakan murtad ini berjalan di Malaysia sehingga kita tak nampak langsung. Gerakan Hindu kita tok sah sebutlah Belum habis cakap, dah ada yang tunggu dengan parang kat luar. Gerakan Yahudi lagilah teruknya. Henry Ford (orang kaya yang buat kereta Ford tu) pernah menulis berkaitan Yahudi tahun 40an atau 30an dulu dalam bukunya ‘International Jew’ (tak Silap saya).
Unsur Yahudi begitu tebal dalam masyarakat kita tapi kita tak nampak. Paling nyata, rokok yang orang kita hisap tu. Setiap satu batang itu ada saham kepada puak Yahudi. Tak de kilang rokok yang bukan Yahudi punya. Sapa yang hendak berenti merokok, ambil ni sebagai iktibar. Yahudi punya kerja, baru letak bola sebijik, 70 ribu Melayu tak sembahyang kat stadium Shah Alam. Belum kira yang kat rumah lagi.
Bab Kristian, lebih terancang, lebih terperinci lagi. Semenjak kalah dalam perang salib terakhir, iaitu dalam pemerintahan King entah apa nama ke 6 yang terakhir. Sebelum dia mati, dia telah berwasiat dan wasiatnya ada ditulis dengan emas di London . Dia berkata: ‘Kepada semua pemimpim-pemimpin Kristian, kita hari ini telah melakukan kesilapan besar, kita berperang dengan tentera Islam dengan pedang, bukan berperang dengan akidah yang ada pada mereka. Sebab tu Islam menang walaupun 30 ribu tentera mereka dengan 300 ribu tentera kita, mereka tetap menang sebab mereka (orang Islam) berperang kerana nak mati. Kita perang untuk hidup. Oleh itu, hendaklah kita tukar strategi. Melancarkan peperangan ideologi, fahaman dan budaya keatas orang Islam.’
Wasiatnya berjaya dilaksanakan setelah King tu mati, 1492, kerajaan Islam Andalusia yang paling agung pada masa itu tumbang di tangan Kristian. 1511 kerajaan Islam Melaka tumbang, tak lama lepas tu, tumbang kerajaan Islam Pattani . Tak lama selepas tu, tumbang kerajaan Islam Kedah . Tak lama lepas tu,tumbang kerajaan Islam Mindanao ..Lepas tu kerajaan Islam Acheh … semuanya satu demi satu..
Macamana benda ni boleh terjadi?
Sebab gerakan Kristian berdasarkan kepada 3G. GOSPEL,GOAL, GLORY . Pertama kitab dia, kedua kekayaan kita, ketiga menang terhadap Islam. Kalau kita tengok sejarah, Alfonso De Albuqueque bukan datang ke Tanah Melayu bawa tukang masak sebab nak rempah kari kita. Dia bukan makan kari, di a datang bawa mubaligh Kristian Francis Xavier (kalau saya tak silap eja), sebab nak sebarkan ajaran Kristian.
Bagaimana cara dia sebarkan Kristian nih?
Orang kita panggil, gerakan halus.Dia panggil semua mubaligh Kristian yang nak datang ke Asia ni. Dia guna kaedah ‘garam dan ragi’. Garam sebagai perasa, ragi untuk penapaian. Contohnya ubi kayu. Waktu siang asalnya ubi kayu kita letak ragi, esoknya masih lagi bentuk ubi kayu tapi sebenarnya tapai. maksudnya, dia kekalkan orang Melayu dengan identiti Islam. Hakikatnya kehidupan kita bukan cara Islam lagi . Cara inilah yang Rasulullah SAW kata macam kepingan hitam di malam gelita. Inilah yang Imam Ghazali kata macam semut hitam atas batu hitam di malam gelita tu.
Pertama, melalui sistem pendidikan. Di Malaysia, macam-macam sekolah dengan nama mubaligh Kristian. Convent itu, Saint ini. Menurut satu petikan seorang mubaligh Kristian pada masa itu yang ditulis semula oleh George Peters dalam sebuah buku tahun 40an. Kepada mubaligh-mubaligh Kristian yang nak datang ke negara kita, berkaitan pendekatan garam dan ragi’. Pendekatan seperti ini tidak memerlukan seorang Muslim Melayu berkenaan meninggalkan ssstem kemasyarakatan yang dituntut oleh agamanya. Sebaliknya orang tersebut hendaklah digalakkan terus tinggal dalam masyarakatnya. Justeru itu, ragi tetap ujud dalam keutuhannya. Dia akan menjadi bagaikan sebuah lampu (Kristian) yang diletakkan dalam gelap. Penyebaran agama Kristian nanti akan terserlah dalam sifat kerohanian, bukannya organisasi. Dirasa kesegarannya, bukan bersikap kalam. Dinamik dan etikal, bukan bersifat formalistik.
Pendekatan begini telah memperlihatkan kebaikannya. Lantaran ia tidak menganjurkan ahli Melayu tadi menjadi ahli baru Kristian yang formal, menyendiri terpisah dari masyarakatnya. Sebaliknya ia memberi laluan agar dapat dimasukkan semangat dan ajaran Jesus bagaikan sebutir ragi yang bertindak dengan proses penapaiannya ke atas seluruh masyarakat Melayu seluruhnya.
Ajaran Kristian akan bertindak melahirkan revolusi , justeru itu nanti,dapatlah dikatakan bahawa kita nanti akan memperolehi satu Kristian muslim Melayu tempatan yang mencerminkan Kristian muslim Melayu sejati.. ‘Sebenarnya dia ingin. Akan datang suatu masa nanti, orang Melayu sendiri tanpa dipaksa-paksa akan buat revolusi untuk menjadi Kristian. Cara kebajikan pulak… Hari ni sapa tak kenal kelab rotary yang cuci buah pinggang, kelab lion, bulan sabit merah, Saint John’s Ambulans, sapa tak kenal palang merah. Mereka masuk dengan cara menghidupkan sekularisme. Sekularisma adalah satu cara mengasingkan agama daripada kehidupan. Itulah kita hari ni mengasingkan Islam daripada kehidupan dunia. Cara lain adalah dengan menghidupkan maksiat. Kita kena ambil tindakan samada dengan tangan, dengan mulut, atau paling lemah sekali, dengan hati.
Bangun malam buat sembahyang hajat agar kita semua diselamatkan dari fitnah besar ini. Paling kurang pun, fowardkan email ni kepada saudara kita yang lain yang tak tahu menahu tu. Kita kena peka. Ini semua tanggung jawab kita semua.
Akhir sekali, Sekadar meniupkan semangat perjuangan dalam diri kita yang mengaku Islam ini. Ni lah masanya kita bangkit pertahankan agama Islam sebelum terlambat.
#kawan-kawan yang dikasihi, tolong Forwardkan dan Share entri ini untuk pengetahuan dan tindakan kita semua sebagai orang Islam agar perkara ini boleh dijadikan iktibar dan benteng untuk kita mempertahankan akidah kita yang telah di Islamkan atas tiket keturunan dimana dengan sebab ini kita telahpun mendapat banyak rahmat dan belas ihsan dari Allah tanpa perlu melalui hidup Sebagai seorang yang terpesong dari ajaran-Nya dan sentiasa mencari-cari jalan yang betul.
Di harap rahmat Allah dan doa-doa para waliullah dapat melindungi kita sehingga kita kembali ke sisi-Nya. Sementara itu, berhati-hatilah dalam apa jua yang kita lakukan dan sentiasa beringat kepada Allah.
Ya Allah, gantikanlah kepedihan ini dengan kesenangan, jadikan kesedihan itu awal kebahagian. Wahai Rabb, tuangkan dalam jiwa yang bergolak ini kedamaian… Wahai Rabb, tunjukanlah pandangan yang kebingungan ini kepada cahaya-MU, bimbinglah sesatnya perjalanan ini ke arah jalan-MU mnuju hidayah-MU!
Share kan entri ini pada orang ramai.
Jalankan tanggungjawab anda sebagai seorang ISLAM, jangan biar agama ISLAM dipermainkan.

Cover Girl----The Way U R

These songs serves me as a good motivation. As a girl, sometimes you feel so insecure and are sometimes being to hard on yourself. Have this ever happens to you? Being insecure whether you're not pretty enough, feeling like you're just 'don't fit' in to what the society demands us?

I'm not saying you should ditch the idea of being fit and health, but the proper perspective is to take good care of yourself on the daily basis.

Bruno Mars The way you are is a motivational songs. Just embrace yourself and love yourself for who you are.



Another song is from BIG TIME RUSH COVER GIRL
(I know I'm in lov e with their songs;I admit I like all of their songs)



I don't know why you always get so insecure
I wish you could see what I see when you're looking in the mirror
And why won't you believe me when I say
That to me you get more beautiful, everyday

When you're looking at the magazines
And thinking that you'll never measure up
You're wrong

Cause you're my cover, cover girl
I think you're a superstar, yeah you are
Why don't you know
Yeah, you're so pretty that it hurts
It's what's underneath your skin
The beauty that shines within
You're the only one that rocks my world
My cover girl
Oh, my cover girl

You walk in rainboots on a perfect summer day
Somehow you always see the dark side, when everything's okay
And you wear baggy clothes that camoflague your shape
Whoa, but you know that I love you, just the way you're made

When you're looking at the magazines
And thinking that you're just not good enough
You're so wrong, baby

Cause you're my cover, cover girl
I think you're a superstar, yeah you are
Why don't you know
Yeah, you're so pretty that it hurts
It's what's underneath your skin
The beauty that shines within
You're the only one that rocks my world
My cover girl

Got a heart of gold, a perfect original
Wish you would stop being so hard on yourself for a while
And when I see that face
I'd try a thousand ways
I would do anything to make you smile

Cause you're my cover, cover girl
I think you're a superstar, yeah you are
Why don't you know
Yeah, you're so pretty that it hurts
It's what's underneath your skin
The beauty that shines within
You're the only one that rocks my world
My cover girl
Oh, my cover girl
Oh, my cover girl

Whoa oh, my cover girl
Whoa oh, my cover girl

I DON'T HAVE ANY RIGHTS OF THESE SONGS :)

JUST WANT TO SHARE THE JOY~

another Big Time Rush clip IMAO

I'm still thinking of what else should I include in my blog..???

Above all that, I have a clip of when BTR was performing their song 'Till I forget about you' in UK.

I love James's hair!!! Gosh, he looks sweet when he smiles. I have a crush on James Maslow.

Big Time Rush is so awesome!

I think Big Time Rush should be getting some appreciation for their music talents. I mean all of their songs are so good! Why aren't they getting rise up fame? :D

The members are consist of Logan,James,Carlos and Kendall. I use to have this fangirl crazy over boy bands. I think I've outgrown somehow over the past years.

This lyrics song is one of my favorite from BTR!

Plus: I kept daydreaming about being James's girlfriend. But I think I like Logan more. hehehe. I guess I still have that 'inner fangirl-thing'

Big Time Rush feat Jordin Sparks

This is their official MV


Oh Oh Ohhhh Ohhhhh.
Oh Oh Ohhhh Ohhhhh.
Oh Oh Ohhhh Ohhhhh.

Make it count,
Play it straight.
Don't look back,
Don't hesitate.
When you go big time.

Whatcha are
Whatcha feel.
Never quit,
And make it real.
When you go big time.

[Ohhhhh.]
Hey! [Ohhhh] Hey! [Ohhhhh]
Listen to your heart now!
Hey! [Ohhhh] Hey! [Ohhhhh]
Don't you feel the rush?
Hey! [Ohhhh] Hey! [Ohhhhh]
Better take your shot now.

Ohhhh Ohhhhh.
Ohhhh Ohhhhh.

C'mon shake it up!
Whatcha gotta lose?
Go and make your luck with the life you choose,
If you want it all,
Lay it on the line.
It's the only life ya got,
So ya gotta live it big time.

Oh Oh Ohhhh Ohhhhh.
Oh Oh Ohhhh Ohhhhh.

Step it up,
Get in gear.
Go for broke,
Make it clear.
Gotta go big time.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/big-time-rush-big-time-rush-lyrics.html ]
Make it work,
Get it right.
Change the world over night.
Gotta dream big time.

[Ohhhhh.]
Hey! [Ohhhh] Hey! [Ohhhhh]
Give it all you got now.
Hey! [Ohhhh] Hey! [Ohhhhh]
Isn't it a rush?
Hey! [Ohhhh] Hey! [Ohhhhh]
Finish what you start now.

Ohhhh Ohhhhh.
Ohhhh Ohhhhh.

C'mon shake it up!
Whatcha gotta lose?
Go and make your luck with the life you choose,
If you want it all,
Lay it on the line.
It's the only life ya got,
So ya gotta live it big time.

Look around,
Every light is shining now,
It's brighter somehow.
Look around,
Nothings really as it seems,
Nothing but dreams.
You and I,
Gonna make a brand new sound,
Like we own this town.

We can fly,
Now our feet are off the ground,
We'll never look down.
Welcome to the big time,
All the pretty people see you walking in the sunshine.
Welcome to the good times,
Life will never be the same.

C'mon shake it up!
Whatcha gotta lose?
Go and make your luck with the life you choose,
If you want it all,
Lay it on the line.
It's the only life ya got,
So ya gotta live it big time.

Oh Oh Ohhhh Ohhhhh.
Oh Oh Ohhhh Ohhhhh.
If you want it all,
Lay it on the line.
It's the only life ya got,
So ya gotta live it big time.

HARI VALENTINE ADALAH HARAM

Kepada saudara-saudara muslim, sila AMBIL PERHATIAN dgn post ini.

TAKE YOUR BREATHE AND READ THIS.

CREDIT SOURCE: JAKIM

Fenomena sebahagian remaja menjadikan Valentine’s Day sebagai perayaan paling diminati dan sangat-sangat ditunggu untuk diraikan bersama kekasih amat menggusarkan. Ia sebenarnya merupakan satu fenomena ajaib dan aneh kerana perayaan ini tidak pernah disisipkan secara rasmi di mana-mana kalender. Akan tetapi ia terus diingati dan diraikan saban tahun.

To be my Valentine?

Bagi mereka yang meraikan sambutan Valentine’s Day ungkapan ‘To be my Valentine’ sering bermain di bibir. Kebiasaannya ia diungkapkan oleh teruna kepada si dara dalam menzahirkan kecintaannya.

Menurut Ken Sweiger, perkataan “Valentine” berasal dari bahasa Latin yang mempunyai maksud “Yang Maha Perkasa, Yang Maha Kuat, dan Yang Maha Kuasa”. Menurutnya lagi, kata ini sebenarnya digunakan pada zaman Rom Kuno ditujukan kepada Nimrod dan Lupercus, tuhan orang Romawi. Sedar atau tidak, menurut Sweiger, jika seseorang meminta orang lain atau pasangannya menjadi “To be my Valentine?”, maka dengan hal itu sesungguhnya ia telah secara terang melakukan suatu perbuatan yang bercanggah dengan aqidah dan dimurkai Allah. Ini karena ia telah meminta seseorang menjadi “Sang Maha Kuasa” dan hal ini sama dengan usaha menghidupkan kembali budaya pemujaan berhala.

Mengapa Mawar Merah?

Selain ucapan ‘To be my Valentine’ pemberian jambangan mawar merah oleh si teruna kepada si dara juga sering menjadi amalan pada Valentine’s Day. Ia dianggap satu simbol dalam menzahirkan kasih sayang ‘hakiki’. Sebenarnya perbuatan ini merupakan amalan kebudayaan Eropah dengan diselitkan kepercayaan aneh dan karut. Menurut satu mitos Rom kuno, mawar merah merupakan bunga kegemaran Venus, si dewi cinta. Dewi itu amat sinonim dengan memperingati kekasih. Ia tidak ada kaitan dengan Islam dan hanya mengikut ‘teladan’ mitos karut.

Amalan memberi bunga mawar merah ini sebenarnya mula dipopularkan pada tahun 1970an. Ia berlaku selepas Raja Charles II mengarang buku yang bertajuk The Languange of Flowers, yang menguraikan tentang amalan kebiasaan bangsa Persia yang mengungkapkan perasaan melalui bunga. Sejak itu pemberian mawar merah terutama pada saat Valentine’s Day amat popular. Tanpa mengetahui sebabnya ia terus menjadi amalan.

Hukum Menyambut Valentine’s Day

Sebenarnya, majoriti tokoh agama telah menyatakan bahawa menyambut atau meraikan Sambutan Hari Valentine ini adalah bertentangan dengan Syarak. Menurut Panel Kajian Aqidah (PKA) dan Panel Kajian Syariah (PKS) Jabatan Kemajuan Islam Malaysia amalan ini adalah haram dan bertentangan dengan ajaran Islam.”

Jawatankuasa Fatwa Majlis Kebangsaan Bagi Hal Ehwal Agama Islam Malaysia kali ke-71 yang bersidang pada 22 hingga 24 November 2005 memutuskan bahawa amalan merayakan Hari Valentine tidak pernah dianjurkan oleh Islam. Roh perayaan tersebut mempunyai unsur-unsur Kristian dan amalannya yang bercampur dengan perbuatan maksiat adalah bercanggah dan dilarang oleh Islam. Oleh itu amalan meraikan Hari Valentine tidak digalakkan oleh agama Islam.

Pengharaman dan larangan ini bukanlah kerana ingin menghalang keseronokan atau dengki di atas aktiviti trend baru zaman moden ini. Tetapi ianya berlandaskan kepada apa yang dinyatakan di dalam Al-Quran dan As-Sunnah yang menjadi panduan seantero umat manusia bagi mengecapi keindahan hidup di dunia dan diakhirat.

Sejarah Valentine’s Day

Menurut Rizki Ridyasmara di dalam bukunya, Valentine Day, Natal, Happy New Year, April Mop, Hallowen: So What?, para sejarawan masih tidak mempunyai kata sepakat berkenaan peristiwa apa sebenarnya menjadikan Hari Valentine terus diperingat. Tetapi daripada beberapa sumber sejarah terdapat empat (4) versi pendapat yang amat popular berkaitan dengannya.

Pendapat Pertama

Pendapat pertama mengaitkan Sambutan Hari Valentine dengan pesta sambutan kaum Rom kuno sebelum kedatangan agama Kristian yang dinamakan Lupercalia. Lupercalia merupakan upacara penyucian diri yang berlangsung dari 13 hingga 18 Februari. Dua hari pertama mereka menyembah dewi cinta (Queen of Feverish Love) bagi kaum Rom kuno yang bernama Juno Februata. Pada hari ini para pemuda Rom memilih nama-nama gadis-gadis yang menjadi pilihan mereka lalu dimasukkan ke dalam sebuah kotak. Setiap pemuda tersebut kemudiannya akan mencabut nama tersebut dari dalam kotak itu secara rawak. Nama gadis yang tertera di dalam kertas tersebut akan menjadi pasangan yang akan menjadi objek hiburan seksnya selama setahun. Pada 15 Februari, mereka meminta perlindungan dewa Lupercalia dari gangguan serigala. Pada hari itu mereka akan menyembelih seekor anjing dan kambing. Kemudian mereka akan memilih dua pemuda Rom yang dianggap paling gagah untuk menyapukan darah binatang tersebut ke badan mereka lalu mencucinya pula dengan susu. Setelah itu akan diadakan perarakan besar-besaran yang diketuai dua pemuda tersebut dan mereka berdua akan memukul orang ramai yang berada di laluan mereka dengan kulit binatang dan para wanita akan berebut-rebut untuk menerima pukulan tersebut kerana mereka beranggapan ianya akan menambahkan kesuburan mereka. Semasa agama Kristian menguasai Rom, mereka mengadaptasikan upacara paganism ini dan mewarnainya dengan nuansa Kristian. Mereka menggantikan nama-nama gadis dengan nama-nama Paus atau Pastor. Antara pendukungnya adalah Raja Konstantine dan Paus Gregory I.

Pendapat Kedua

Pendapat kedua pula mengaitkannya dengan kematian paderi St. Valentine ketika pemerintahan Raja Rom yang bernama Claudius II. Terdapat dua (2) kisah berkaitan dengan St. Valentine ini.

Versi pertama menyatakan bahawa pada masa pemerintahan Claudius II, kerajaan Rom yang menyembah dewa-dewi, hidup dengan penuh mitos dan lagenda amat memusuhi penganut agama Kristian. Para mubaligh Kristian telah dipenjara serta disiksa. St. Valentine sebagai seorang yang tegar menganut agama Kristian dan aktif menyebarkan ajaran tersebut turut dipenjarakan oleh Cladius II. Dikhabarkan St. Valentine walaupun dipenjarakan, beliau tetap tegar mengajar dan menyebarkan agama tersebut di kalangan banduan-banduan penjara di samping membantu tawanan-tawanan penjara meloloskan diri dari penjara. Kegiatan ini telah diketahui oleh Cladius II dan beliau memerintahkan St. Valentine diseksa dan akhirnya dihukum bunuh pada 14 Februari. Pengorban yang dilakukan oleh St Valentine ini dianggap oleh penganut Kristian sebagai satu pengorbanan yang besar demi kecintaan beliau terhadap agamanya. Malah St. Valentine disamakan dengan Jesus yang dianggap oleh penganut Kristian mati kerana menebus dosa yang dilakukan oleh kaumnya. Dikatakan juga bahawa ketika di dalam penjara, beliau telah jatuh cinta dengan anak salah seorang pegawai penjara dan di akhir hayatnya sebelum dibunuh, beliau sempat menulis sepucuk surat cinta kepada gadis tersebut yang bertandatangan ‘From your Valentine’ (Daripada Valentinemu). Maka orang-orang Kristian mengambil sempena 14 Februari itu untuk meraikan hari kasih sayang demi memperingati hari kematian paderi mereka St. Valentine.

Versi kedua pula menyatakan bahawa Claudius II, yang berhadapan dengan peperangan beranggapan bahawa anggota tentera yang muda dan masih bujang adalah lebih tabah dan kuat ketika berada di medan peperangan berbanding dengan mereka yang telah berkahwin. Justeru itu, Cladius II menghalang para pemuda dari berkahwin. Namun demikian, St.Valentine menentangnya dengan keras dan beliau telah melakukan upacara pernikahan terhadap para pemuda Rom secara rahsia. Aktiviti St. Valentine ini akhirnya diketahui oleh Cladius II lalu beliau mengarahkan St. Valentine ditangkap dan dihukum gantung pada 14 Februari 269 M.

Pendapat Ketiga

Ia dirayakan bersempena kejatuhan Kerajaan Islam Andalusia di Sepanyol dimana St. Valentine merupakan individu yang telah memainkan peranan penting dalam usaha menjatuhkan kerajaan Islam itu. Disebabkan sumbangan itu, St. Valentine dianggap sebagai kekasih rakyat. 14 Februari 1492 merupakan tarikh kejatuhan Islam di Sepanyol dan dianggap pada hari itu hari kasih sayang kerana mereka menganggap Islam adalah agama yang zalim.

Pendapat Keempat

Berdasarkan apa yang dinukilkan oleh Geoffrey Chaucer, seorang penyair Inggris di dalam puisinya. Sambutan Hari Valentine ini bersempena dengan sifat burung yang musim mengawannya pada 14 Februari.

Berdasarkan kepada versi-versi tersebut, ianya amat jelas tiada hubungan sama ada secara langsung ataupun tidak langsung dengan budaya kita mahupun agama bagi umat Islam. Malahan ianya amat terang lagi tersuluh mempunyai kaitan dalam memperlekehkan aqidah Islam dan orang Islam sendiri.

Kebejatan Acara Valentine’s Day

Sebenarnya bukan sekadar apa yang tersirat di sebalik amalan dan kepercayaan berkenaan Sambutan Hari Valentine ini sahaja amat keji dan perlu dihindari. Tetapi acara-acara jelek dan tidak boleh diterima oleh budaya manusia bertamadun, menjadikan ianya perlu ditolak dan dipadamkan dari takwim perayaan manusia madani dan memiliki pegangan aqidah yang suci.

Lihatlah bagaimana saban tahun kebelakangan ini, media-media mendedahkan pelbagai acara dianjurkan bagi mengamatkan Sambutan Hari Valentine, khususnya kepada kalangan muda mudi. Ianya dicatur berpaksikan kepada menzahirkan perasaan kasih dan sayang kepada pasangan masing-masing. Amat jijik dan jelek sekiranya difikirkan dengan akal pemikiran yang waras. Bagaimanakah seorang kekasih boleh menyerahkan dan melakukan apa sahaja untuk kekasihnya tanpa ada sebarang ikatan demi membuktikan perjanjian cinta?

Akan tetapi, apa yang amat mendukacitakan, acara tidak bertamadun dan tidak bermata dalam menilai kehormatan sesama insan itu tetap mendapat sambutan. Ia sukar dibendung. Jauh sekali untuk dibersihkan sepenuhnya. Kesedaran pemikiran yang waras tercabut dengan hayalan dan dongengan dek janji indahnya kasih sayang tanpa ada suluhan kebenaran yang hak.

Berdasarkan kepada apa yang telah terjadi, sebenarnya Hari yang bertemakan kepada menyanjungi dan mengagungi kasih sayang di kalangan para kekasih menjadi hari permulaan bermulanya bencana dan kehancuran. Sememangnya pada Valentine's Day akan muncul si Romeo dan si Juliet yang mampu mengungkapkan bait-bait puisi seindah puisi William Shakespeare. Tidak kurang pula juga mereka yang sehebat si Laila dan si Majnun dalam bergelumang memperjuangkan kesetiaan cinta dengan bibir mengalunkan kata-kata puitis seindah puisi Jamaludin Rumi. Itu semua hanya seketika dek karamnya mereka di dalam bahtera gelojak nafsu tanpa nakhoda keimanan. Keindahan detik ‘syurga’ ciptaan penuh tipu daya hanya wujud pada hari itu sahaja. Ia akan ghaib entah ke mana setelah berakhirnya Valentine’s Day.

Penderitaan, kekecewaan dan penyesalan akan menyelusuri. Ia akan menggantikan nikmat yang tidak seberapa. Si Romeo yang menjanjikan seribu kesetiaan menjadi halimunan bersama janjinya. Si Majnun yang menaburkan selangit pengorbanan demi kasih, cinta dan setia bisu dan ghaib entah kemana. Ia sudah terlambat untuk diatasi. Nasi sudah menjadi bubur. Cempedak sudah menjadi nangka. Kekesalan sudah tiada gunanya.

Islam Ada Cara

Islam sebagai agama fitrah dan sempurna, sentiasa menganjurkan kasih sayang sesama kekasih. Ini dapat dilihat melalui apa yang diungkapkan di dalam Kitab Al-Quran dan dijelmakan oleh Rasulullah s.a.w. bongkarlah khazanah yang ditinggalkan oleh Rasulullah s.a.w itu bagi mencarinya.

Menzahirkan kasih sayang kepada kekasih perlulah ada batasan selaras dengan fitrah manusia. Kasih sayang diantara dua jantina berbeza tidak boleh hanya dengan janji manis di bibir. Tetapi ia perlu diikat dengan satu ikatan akad yang mampu menyimpul ikatan kukuh bagi menjamin zuriat, akhlak dan peribadi. Ikatan itu dinamakan sebagai perkahwinan.

Ia bukan bertujuan menyusahkan hubungan sesama manusia. Akan tetapi, ia hanya bermatlamatkan menjadikan masyarakat yang stabil, aman dan harmoni. Keindahan dalam menzahirkan kasih sayang itulah yang dianjurkan oleh Islam dan perlulah disemai dan dibajai setiap hari tanpa perlu menunggu detik satu hari dalam setahun.

Penutup


Bagi menyelamatkan agamadan ummah dari terus musnah akibat impak amalan-amalan bertentangan dengan aqidah dan syariah sempena Valentine’s Day ini perlulah disemaikan dalam setiap minda kita mewar-warkan larangan Sambutan Valentine’s Day dari terus diraikan oleh umat Islam khususnya di Negara kita. Wujudkanlah perasaan anti Valentine’s Day di dada dan minda, hadirkanlah rasa benci dan tidak akan meraikannya melalui penyertaan aktiviti-aktiviti yang menyalahi aqidah, syarak dan tamadun manusia.

RAJIN-RAJIN LAH SAMPAIKAN NASIHAT INI KEPADA SAUDARA-SAUDARA KITA SEAGAMA.

MAY ALLAH S.W.T GUIDE every Muslim on the right path. AMIN

I think life will be so much better when people give an 'open' vibe vulnerably to others so that person can approach to others comfortably.

Nevertheless, it's just ONE way right?

There's another way, how about just ignore and get on with your own a way.

Even though it does get me into trouble sometimes.

Some people just can't appreciate you easily when they are giving their very best.

Family and Friends both are just people. Nothing more.

I also think that patiance help to make things a little better.

Geez, I feel so tired.

Alternatively, well, I have MUET Writing, reading and listening paper on 19th November 2011.

One horrible day!

I've just got into a petty fight with my sister who is younger than me. Clearly, it was my fault overall, if only I'd would fix my problem earlier. Then nothing like this would not had happen!

I do feel SUPER terrible about it. I don't feel like myself.

I didn't over reacted like she did it to me today. Instead I tried to be mature and wise in my choice of words.

In other words, I tried to find inner peace and not let that ruin me, that has certainly helped me

I had to GET OVER IT! I think I'm going to move on from now on.

Even though, I didn't try to fix that situation, at least I didn't blow up like she did.

As a result from this arguments, I felt like such a horrible person inside, hurt that I hurt her due to my action (stupid thing) and I just don't want to face her at the moment!

How horrible can I be right?

Listen to UR VOICE

I didn't know that searching for the things that you love to do can be a hard thing to do.

Why I'm saying this, because everyone have their own adventure and dreams. Everything

just needs its timing, what, where and how.

Today I learnt that I like writing. I discovered the joy and pleasure of expressing my

inner voice onto a paper. The feelings, the joy, the wonderful emotions when I am holding a pen . You should try it you know!

I beg you to please take time to listen to your own inner voice, since it's your life. You've got only one chance to live in this world, so live your life to the fullest!

I wonder if this desire does come from my heart or is it just to please everyone else?


Well,the still search goes on. No matter how hard it will take, I'll do anything!

M.U.M.

I'm going to sound really crazy and brat XD but I can't hold it any longer.
My mum is such a difficult person to live with, I don't know if she knows this. But she is.

I think it's way more difficult to manage her. GOSH! Why is she always being superficial and trying to win in every single 'arguments' and conversation we have?

I'm not that low and I'm not that stupid you know, please at least cut me some slack. I deserve it at least. I know she's like the Queen in the house, but that doesn't mean she has the right to control people like her children up to the maximum!!!!!

I'm tired, sick and so frustrated with her. I can't imagine taking care of her in the future. She's just like her own mother, who happens to be my grandmother too.

Both have that common annoying characteristic, always want to win in everything that they do!!!

I don't like having a Quuen Bee Mum, I mean there's no such thing as a Queen Bee Mum. I hate having conversation with her!!!! It's like there's a negative energy been directed between us. That makes me feels like it's always going to repel. On the contrary it does occur!!

URGHHHHH I feel like I'm living a hell under a roof with her. She's the most annoying mum in the world! I hate it!!! (I can't say I hate her, it's too harsh)

Heart is to be broken

I'm fine if you don't want to talk to me anymore. Maybe be I'm just being paranoid to which I am.

All I ever wanted from you is to be my good friend.

I like you. And, I think I'm falling 'in love' with you. I knew you too little and had met you too soon. I think it's not bad to say 'I like you'

I wish you were mine. And I can be yours. But this is just crap! Darn, why did u had to get into a relationship so early. Can't you at least wait until you get a good decent job?

God knows what's best for me?

I'm sick of having numerous inappropriate crushes with guys. I can't stand having my heart broken lots of times. I'm sick of unrequited love. I'm sick of seeing guys with their girl, call me a jealous psycho but I just can't help it.

It makes me feel like I want to give up on love totally!!! Argh!!!!!!!!
I just hate love. love love love.

Why can't there just be love with no heart breaks, no more tears and no more cry. Even for a loser like me, I will still keep hoping for someday true love will find me. Let love find me and not vice-versa.

Peace!

Law of attraction

I guess I can't be having this feelings to you then
sigh..I wish it would be true.

I'm not a princess either nor some super model but I am me and i love me just the way I am.

Nobody can change me only I can do that

In the end I have to learn to love me for who else is going to love me first right?

I'm trying to have an attractive life, interesting life and 'get a life'!

I am me and still only me.

Thank you for letting me live and giving me my own space. I don't like living with guilt and conflicts. What's even more important is that I don't have to keep dwelling on my dislikes of you. Thank you for letting me live. Don't bring disgrace to your family's name. I regretted talking to you in the first place. For your own peace, I don't keep any more animosity towards you. You can be relieve now. GOOD BYE FOREVER. Sayonara.

only u can love urself, nobody can love u if u can't love urself first. Only then the right person will come.

I can never be satisfied when things don't seem to go the way I wanted it to be, but it's not always healthy that way.

kdg2 terifkir jugak apa salah aku sampai aku boleg buat budak tu jadi sebegitu. pelik la. adakah aku ni terlalu lembut? or i'm I too harsh on her?
the answer is just don't give a damn! pedulikan aje. they are just KIDS who just started to learn abt life. Life is not like a rainbow on the other side of course. learn to grow up girls. not everything going to go ur own way. Welcome to Life!

· · 8 hours ago


That is from my facebook status!!
Grrrr
I'm freaking mad with this gurl..i mean WTF does she think she is. She could actually address me politely. Guess again, she ain't doing that. No matter how many times I tried talking her out politely like 'friend-to-friend' terms.

I guess some people can't change for their own good, some can. I've learnt that about human beings

I'm in love with Audioslave. I'm into rock music from the start. Rocl songs suits my mental state more than my soul In fact, it hv nothing to do wit it.

Screw that girl for good~~ if she doesn't want to change be i\that way. Who needs you anyway punk?!

I'm saying bad things today because of her messages I'd received today.

Facebook oh why oh why...

Another charming day...

These are just some stuff happening within this week

I think ppl can't run away from their first crush, it will always stick in your mind forever. I knew I just saw my crush a couple of days ago, the feelings came back. It's tough to get rid of it. So I just have 2 distract my mind on something else

you have wonderful family and friends
your friends care about you so much in every way
that you are so blind to see all that
how ungrateful you are to God
Don't wait until God take them away from you
Remember they aren't going to live with us forever
For now, you may take them for granted
but as they get older it's too late to say 'I'm sorry'
they're gone
So be good to them and appreciate them
Show it not just say it.

Kids these days are lot scarier comapre to my days. they would rather kill themselves than trying to search for that 'ight' or solutions. Instead this person chose to take their own life. To make it worse, they want to do it because of you (by all means me!)

Please please don't ever do that. What good can that bring? Have you ever think about your family, friends, girlfriends or boyfriends, spouse etc Guess what? if u do kill yourself chances are your family or friends will blame themselves for your death. The pain will be there forever. So think first before you do it!

It's not great it's not nice. Have you ever thought about what kind of journey you will take when you die?

will it be good or will it be bad. Nevertheless, suicide is B-A-D BAD.

People anyone whoever reads this. It's not worth it I tell you.

Remember God loves you, He created you so you could always refer to him, ask him, talk to him, yearn for his love and guidance. His your Creator, your Best Friend, your Parent and your Light etc

He is there for you whenever you need help assistance guidance

Ask for Him to show you the way from your problems, difficulties and disputes.

Only God has all the answers, yes we do have answers too but God will always know better than all of us.

So pray to HIM.

God loves YOU. Remember that.

Starting school holiday!!!

Kya!!! I really wanted to update my blog with interesting stuff. I just need to DO IT! It's not like it's difficult to do right? ..tisk tisk I'll try harder and improve on my writing.

Latest updates from me

I've just came back from my practicum in Sekinchan. Phew! what a life! I guess this is how it's like working. Despite being a 20 year old woman, I still feel like a kid on the inside when I do these stuff writing, surfing on net , twittering..i guess these what keeps me younger. ^_^

I'm in love with those precious kids of mine. I am beginning to show my love, care and respect to my students. I really hope they do well at least have some improvements in their English. Come on 2 Belian you can do it!!

I really envy those bloggers who keep updating every single juice of their life!!! wow, what a passion.

I have discovered what are my ambition in life is. After searching in the midst of my entire whole life, I've finally found one. My true passion and something I'm excited to do.

Allah S.W.T. please make my journey easier and worthwhile for me to accomplish. I feel like I can truly accomplish something in life and be proud about it. ^_^

Look at me, alhmadulillah I have found my AMBITION. Now, I'm working towards realizing it one by one, it's one heck of a journey and I am willing to go through this adventure!!!

I'm back in my hometown Batu Gajah. My family and I, we've been planning to go to a 4 days tour package in Pulau Langkawi. I won't be posting pictures. But I will update about my holidays later, insya-allah. I really want to test my writing skills. Again, it's something important to me.

Life is more meaningful when you have friends.

The'll be challenges ahead, I am willing to put perseverance and strong will. God, please listen to my heart. I am praying to my heart content.

Never Give up on Love

..Just some sharing..

I didn't wrote this. My friend passed this to me from another source. Thanks stranger. I need something else to upgrade my blog. I'll figure it out anyway.

This opens up my mind about the whole lovey-lovey thing. It reminds me, all those love song and love stories it's just another author's and artist fantasy, to satisfy out minds and needs. I'm not saying not listening to love songs at all, what I meant is just don't get caught up with it it's just another creation's fantasy, believe in love and never give up in love. Allah S.W.T. have set us with just the perfect partner for each and every single one of us. Have trust and faith on him. he will lead you to that special someone.

One very important thing about love: love is not worth searching for; love solves none of your problems, love does not lift you up where you belong, and love is not all you need.

People who look for love to fill a longing for fulfillment, happiness, purpose, confidence, direction, or satisfaction will never find any of that, because you will fall in love with a human being, and every single human being on this planet is exactly that: human. Humans are self-serving, stubborn, short-sighted, and flawed in an infinite number of combinations. Love allows a person to burrow into your heart, consume your mind, and reroute your life. What do you think will happen, happily ever after?

When you start looking at love as a goal, as a prize, as a trophy, as a bandage, as a roadmap, or as anything else but a decision to give irreplaceable parts of yourself to someone else, then you will utterly fuck yourself up because the reality of compromise, fighting, and endings which you conveniently disregarded will destroy you. What people don't realize is that love is not safety, it's danger; you don't take control, you take a chance. You're putting your trust in the hands of a very human person, and that person is never the hero you've built him or her up to be. Never.

People are never perfect, but their moments of selfishness and greed are always tempered by moments of generosity, caring, and unbelievable goodness. Knowing this will keep you grounded, realistic, and open-minded to the fact that love can last a lifetime or end tomorrow, that people change for better or for worse, and that you are one of those people.

Love is meant to be discovered, not hunted down. It's meant to be savored, and not craved for. All the expectations and music videos and chick lit and happy endings you've heaped onto love will cheapen it into a miracle cure for all the aches and hurts you think you have, and you will realize one day that it's not even that, and that you're aching and hurting even more.

There are other ways to be happy and feel wanted and have purpose. You are going to spend so much time trying to find one person who can do it all for you, that you'll believe in yourself less and less.

I'm not telling you to give up on love now, but you have to know what it is, what it means, and what it will take from you before you can truly appreciate what it can give back.

05/05/2011 Just lovee the kids

~Teaching Practicum in S.K. Seri Sekinchan~

5/05/2011

Syifa and I went to teach a science relief class. We were assigned in the last class 3 MUTIARA. Although we were in the middle of our 'teaching' another English Teacher (I shall not write it in here) came into our class. She was actually angry at a particular kid. hahah good for him.

It was HAVOC! but we had a swell time. They weren't so bad and naughty, just plain cute and good. Their English language are still at the bottom level ranking. I had a hard time controlling the class, lack of class control will leads to chaos. That's exactly what happened to me today. Syifa was teaching in front, while I was in charge of controlling few 'naughty' ones at the back. Mind you, I feel like strangling those boys one by one. One kid kept bugging me by saying 'LOVE YOU UZTAZAH' I was stunned at that spot. I went ignoring him but he kept saying it over and over again.

We tried playing quiz, unfortunately they couldn't even spell easy words. Damn! But we didn't stop just there, there's more! I tried playing Hangman, but I myself didn't knew how it works in the first place.

The Principals and the GPK are nice people. They are always trying to help us in every way possible. GPK she reminds me of my parents, just love the way she carry herself.

Until next time, I'll be keeping my updates about my practicum.

Worry about teaching them the wrong grammar! It's a sin if I do that.

life life oh me!

Suddenly, i feel like everything is going to fall again..AGAIN. Doshite? I'll tell you why.

I feel like nobody understands me...nobody truly understands me. It's hard to find someone not even a friend who could be truly understanding of me. I feel lonely all the time, on the surface I act all tough and cool. But on the inside, it speaks everything. I am lonely. I want to find someone who truly understands my own feelings, how I feel towards everything. Like a soul mate.

It's so unfortunate to say this, but not even my own mother could really understand my feelings whenever she says those things to me. It's like she can't get through my head and just happily blurt it out. GOSH!!!

Life is so cruel, ne? Sometimes I do think that I'm like a spoilt brat. Being spoilt there's nothing wrong about it, just don't overdoing it!

Unfortunate..

OMG! Something has just happened today. Guess what? I found this to be appalling.
My lil bro's friend lied to him that it's holiday for some reason ( I don't even know why) This friend of my brother has been lying to his parents a LOT OF TIMES (tisk tisk tisk) and he did something which is really bad truanting school. Apparently, his mother have no knowledge that his son ever did this until today. For those who are reading this, truanting and lying to parents about u are 'going to school' and instead going to cyber cafe, is how ppl became a criminals. That scares me every bit, not dramatically but sometimes I do that, But this is REALITY.

I was freaking emotinally mad when this happens. To tell every reader here, the truth is I never liked one bit of his friend in the first time. My guts tells me his something 'odd' which until today reveals that.

I say, my parents will do SOMETHING about that. To the mother's son I say GOODLUCK! You totally deserve it. Tisk tisk tisk lying is BAD.

OUR DREAM CAFE

MY DREAM CAFE

SOMETHING LIKE THIS.

WELL, LET MY CREATIVE MINDS DOES IT JOB!!!!

Currently, this is what Fatin, Jannah and I plan to open up someday INSYA-ALLAH our dreams will come true.

One of my best friends who truly understands me deeply. I love you guys so much darlings!

How to Heal a Broken Heart - Find a New Love of Your Life You!

How to Heal a Broken Heart - Find a New Love of Your Life You!

I suggest anyone who experienced a broken heart onces or many times, this is definitely useful for you!

Rejection does hurts. It hurts me like hell

I had wrote this weeks ago before I start being active blogging.

This is something I just have to post regarding about my life. I do hope you guys feel the same or some sort of nice feedback from anyone. ^^




I feel like my whole life has ended...Feeli like I lost a part of me, a part of my dignity and a part of my confidence.
I want to break down on the world...and cry and I feel like just dying..
No matter what I did, I try to keep up my confidence and my dignity and feeling very open about a new door.
I know it’s hard to deal with this kind of rejection.
I never knew it’s that hard but i acknowledge that anyone can get rejected no matter who they are and I did get one.
Gosh, I feel it threatens my self-confidence, my self-worth, my self-pride, my pride, my honour, my self and my life.
Thanks for nothing!!!! You’ve just missed someone who truly wants to love you. From what I heard she already has a boyfriend, why did u ever want to couple up with her??!!!! Arghh that’s something I don’t understand until today until now! That’s something I’m angry and pissed about! That is something which makes me feel very frustrated about you!!!!
BOOM!!! GO TO HELL!!!!!
I know you want me!!! Just be honest with me!!! Whether you ever had the same feeling even the slightest bit of feelings towards me!!! Just be honest with me already!!!
I know I don’t want to sound like a desperate girl but somewhere deep inside my heart something tells me that you do have certain bit of feelings towards me of like or love or affection..it can’t be because i’m sick, desperate or paranoid..but i can’t help feeling this way!!!
I wish this feelings were true, coz if it is then I would be with you and not you being with her.
You were meant to be with me. I gave you something that you wanted, my intention were that.
I’m not a loser when I didn’t get you or when I was too late.
But, my heart was broken into pieces because I’ve loved you for so long. It’s scary to have this feelings of love and affection without me realizing or recognising it myself. All of those bullshit love story and drama makes me feel bad and sad about you, moreover about these. I am truly sad by the fact you rejected me but I openly accept it without fear. This is the reality. This is my reality. Move on now.
SAYONARA I don’t need you and you never needed me anyway. I’m going to find someone better who wants me, who will accept me for who I am without changing a bit about me, who is grateful and blessed to receive love from me because that’s what he wanted and someone who will treat me better that you ever did Syahrul, I can bet on you for that.
Somehow, deeply I want to show you that I can get a better guy to love me. You’ll just wait and see, i’ll be kicking your butt!!!!
Rejection does hurt, that’s the first lesson I’ve learnt as a senior in university. I don’t have a boyfriend. I have pride in not having one. I know what priorities in my life are. I choose to be in a relationship where it will lead me to marriage instead of taking boy friend to as changing your wardrobe.
I got rejected by a guy friend, who I happened not to be close with but I see him everyday in my class. He’s just a normal guy friend, who I often just say ‘Hi!’ or some chats with him but we don’t hang out or anything.
I developed feelings towards him liking him more and more as the semesters continues. Unfortunate ly, I couldn’t even recognize I was even liking him until I actually spoke and told about this to my good friend. She said, I finally admitted I ACTUALLY LIKED HIM. But, I kept this feelings to myself and soon most of my friends kept teasing about him and I. They didn’t tell him that I like him. They were being very understanding and great. I thankful to have such great friends. The bad thing about liking him, the feelings was overwhelming and I was so into it that I felt nervous, scared and extremely shy whenever he was around or when I see him. Up to the point that my friend mentioned it really shows. The feelings gotten worst when it came to my last semester. I couldn’t bear holding it and keeping it to myself. It hurts so badly. I take with all my courage and guts, I confessed to him through text messages.
I pray to God to give me strength so that I can handle this rejection well and nicely. I ask Him to take this rejection as a opportunity to find a new door towards finding someone better who can treat me right. Plus, he loves me just the way I am.
Rejection is a blessing from God, its a chance for me to become a stronger person. I learn to think positive about this. At first, it takes a long time to realize that I was in so much pain. For the teens out there, rejection comes in many different forms, the key is to accept and acknowledge everyone and anyone can be rejected at some points in their lives. Stay open, be realistic, venture into some fun activities, never lose hope into gaining back the normal you, keep praying to God (He is always listening to you and only He can take away your pain) stay confident and put your pride and dignity high. For me, without encountering rejection in life, you will never grow as a stronger person. Take it positively as something that does happen to anyone no matter who you are, no matter what lives situation you experience. At first, it was kind of hard and difficult to accept this rejection, but after I gave myself time to really truly accept it, it open up my eyes, my heart and my world. It something everyone must go through. Let’s call it the real test from God. God wants to see how strong can you be as His humble servant as a human being. I cried painfully. The rejection stings my heart and soul. I did my best to bear it. You must be really really patient, and denying it hurts will only make it worse. So take your time and you will grow as a strong person in the end. One thing, I’ve learn from all these experiences especially the bad ones, you have 3 choices, first you either take it as it is your identity, second to weakened you or third to strengthened you. I chose the third one, rejection to strengthen me. It’s what inside out counts.

My first ever REAL TRUE POST^^ Banzai! Banzai!

I went on a class trip (actually there was actually half of us, kinda sad but its understandable) I put a picture of us before we went to a waterfall somewhere in Perak. I had an amazing and great time! I'm sure going to miss them. ^^ I love all of u.

I wrote something regarding my overall experiences being a senior for Diploma in TESL sem 5B. Enjoy and please share with me your similar experiences. I do love to hear about that.


Last Semester as a Senior
I took a finally breathe as I came down from the bus onto a familiar surface ground, UNISE also, known as Universiti Selangor. I carry my heavy luggage all the way down from PKP ( a small hall near our cafe) all the way to the boys hostel area. It was awkward as this is my first time walking in a boys ‘territory’. I convinced myself, just tolerate and do your own thing. I paced up steps into a girls area block D. It was quite and so new to me. Then, my classmate Nini Pattana came down and greeted me. She also mentioned this block will be her staying this semester. Phew! Boy I was relieved. I thought I was the only one. Looks like they’re will be plenty more to come.
I walked up to my house which is first floor second house. My parents helped me to carry all of my stuff and things. The house was as usual dusty and in need of a lot of cleaning! Something which I had always been good at! I was the first one to arrive there. Then, comes the difficult part I had to say goodbye to by family. A parting from my family is a good thing for me. It’s a chance for me to grow and be independent both inside and outside. Moreover, those times I realized how I appreciate my family even more. There’s more pro’s than con’s towards living far away from your family. Thinking about practicum, I’m going to live all by myself, there’s no guardsman no security, basically it’s like living by your self. I know that because I’m actually writing this while waiting to go to practicum. It’s already 13th of March. And mine will be on 3rd May. A few more days left before I will venture into teaching practicum. I found out, it was basically hard and difficult in terms of keeping motivated and strong, I needed to have that certain endurance to keep up with this semester subjects. Before, this I had a lot of negativity towards getting bad grades for my last semester. I realized during the process of bringing myself up, God wants to test you; moreover, life is not a smooth sailing. We need to be reminded that sometimes we can’t always go up and up but sometimes we have to venture into going down. That’s where you have to learn to handle it, keep growing, reflecting on yourself and learn from your mistakes. I did went through all of that. It hurts me like hell. It doesn’t traumatize me but next time when I do fall down, I now learn how to let go of that bitter feelings and slowly get back to motivation; ready to face the world again. My parents were my biggest supporter and still do. They accepted my results and as I was expected it was a parenting thing job to do. I was happy that they took it well. I thought I was going to die.
I thought I went through all classes smoothly. Even though they were some flinches and annoyances at the start but I managed to come through swept clean and nice. I had a lot of pressure between those times. Those pressures were from parents, classmates, lectures and from my own friends. Yeah, it was all about learning to handle them was the challenge to me. I didn’t know how strong I was at that time. Mind you, it is my final semester, I had to give my all for it. I felt to myself, I could do better for the next day and the day after that. I went full steamed a head not caring in the world about the bad feeling that kept coming sometimes when it had too! Pulling off with my test, assignments and teaching presentation with studying and boy, I was pretty tired at the end of each day.
It was the hardest days of my entire life, when I had to say goodbye for the longest time ever, I might be seeing them or I might not be seeing them. One of my weaknesses are probably aparting from my friends whom had been with me since we all met. We went through everything together. Now, we were all going to miss each other so badly. Besides that, I have now considered them as my best friends. I cried uncontrollably three times when the days are drawing near and nearer to our going apart. It was pretty sad. When I say sad, I mean truly really sad. You should had seen the look on my face when I cried. It was horrendous. On the contrary, I didn’t want to shed a single tear in front of my friends. I’m a type that doesn’t cry in front of others that easily. I decided to carve all of my wonderful joyful good memories I had with my best friends in my heart forever and ever. Now, when I look back, it has become one of my sources of joy. I COULD NEVER CRY ABOUT THAT. They are truly one of my great friends and one of my great study-buds! I’m happy to have them in my life. I am thankful to God, for allowing me to meet and becoming good friends with them.