Rejection does hurts. It hurts me like hell

I had wrote this weeks ago before I start being active blogging.

This is something I just have to post regarding about my life. I do hope you guys feel the same or some sort of nice feedback from anyone. ^^




I feel like my whole life has ended...Feeli like I lost a part of me, a part of my dignity and a part of my confidence.
I want to break down on the world...and cry and I feel like just dying..
No matter what I did, I try to keep up my confidence and my dignity and feeling very open about a new door.
I know it’s hard to deal with this kind of rejection.
I never knew it’s that hard but i acknowledge that anyone can get rejected no matter who they are and I did get one.
Gosh, I feel it threatens my self-confidence, my self-worth, my self-pride, my pride, my honour, my self and my life.
Thanks for nothing!!!! You’ve just missed someone who truly wants to love you. From what I heard she already has a boyfriend, why did u ever want to couple up with her??!!!! Arghh that’s something I don’t understand until today until now! That’s something I’m angry and pissed about! That is something which makes me feel very frustrated about you!!!!
BOOM!!! GO TO HELL!!!!!
I know you want me!!! Just be honest with me!!! Whether you ever had the same feeling even the slightest bit of feelings towards me!!! Just be honest with me already!!!
I know I don’t want to sound like a desperate girl but somewhere deep inside my heart something tells me that you do have certain bit of feelings towards me of like or love or affection..it can’t be because i’m sick, desperate or paranoid..but i can’t help feeling this way!!!
I wish this feelings were true, coz if it is then I would be with you and not you being with her.
You were meant to be with me. I gave you something that you wanted, my intention were that.
I’m not a loser when I didn’t get you or when I was too late.
But, my heart was broken into pieces because I’ve loved you for so long. It’s scary to have this feelings of love and affection without me realizing or recognising it myself. All of those bullshit love story and drama makes me feel bad and sad about you, moreover about these. I am truly sad by the fact you rejected me but I openly accept it without fear. This is the reality. This is my reality. Move on now.
SAYONARA I don’t need you and you never needed me anyway. I’m going to find someone better who wants me, who will accept me for who I am without changing a bit about me, who is grateful and blessed to receive love from me because that’s what he wanted and someone who will treat me better that you ever did Syahrul, I can bet on you for that.
Somehow, deeply I want to show you that I can get a better guy to love me. You’ll just wait and see, i’ll be kicking your butt!!!!
Rejection does hurt, that’s the first lesson I’ve learnt as a senior in university. I don’t have a boyfriend. I have pride in not having one. I know what priorities in my life are. I choose to be in a relationship where it will lead me to marriage instead of taking boy friend to as changing your wardrobe.
I got rejected by a guy friend, who I happened not to be close with but I see him everyday in my class. He’s just a normal guy friend, who I often just say ‘Hi!’ or some chats with him but we don’t hang out or anything.
I developed feelings towards him liking him more and more as the semesters continues. Unfortunate ly, I couldn’t even recognize I was even liking him until I actually spoke and told about this to my good friend. She said, I finally admitted I ACTUALLY LIKED HIM. But, I kept this feelings to myself and soon most of my friends kept teasing about him and I. They didn’t tell him that I like him. They were being very understanding and great. I thankful to have such great friends. The bad thing about liking him, the feelings was overwhelming and I was so into it that I felt nervous, scared and extremely shy whenever he was around or when I see him. Up to the point that my friend mentioned it really shows. The feelings gotten worst when it came to my last semester. I couldn’t bear holding it and keeping it to myself. It hurts so badly. I take with all my courage and guts, I confessed to him through text messages.
I pray to God to give me strength so that I can handle this rejection well and nicely. I ask Him to take this rejection as a opportunity to find a new door towards finding someone better who can treat me right. Plus, he loves me just the way I am.
Rejection is a blessing from God, its a chance for me to become a stronger person. I learn to think positive about this. At first, it takes a long time to realize that I was in so much pain. For the teens out there, rejection comes in many different forms, the key is to accept and acknowledge everyone and anyone can be rejected at some points in their lives. Stay open, be realistic, venture into some fun activities, never lose hope into gaining back the normal you, keep praying to God (He is always listening to you and only He can take away your pain) stay confident and put your pride and dignity high. For me, without encountering rejection in life, you will never grow as a stronger person. Take it positively as something that does happen to anyone no matter who you are, no matter what lives situation you experience. At first, it was kind of hard and difficult to accept this rejection, but after I gave myself time to really truly accept it, it open up my eyes, my heart and my world. It something everyone must go through. Let’s call it the real test from God. God wants to see how strong can you be as His humble servant as a human being. I cried painfully. The rejection stings my heart and soul. I did my best to bear it. You must be really really patient, and denying it hurts will only make it worse. So take your time and you will grow as a strong person in the end. One thing, I’ve learn from all these experiences especially the bad ones, you have 3 choices, first you either take it as it is your identity, second to weakened you or third to strengthened you. I chose the third one, rejection to strengthen me. It’s what inside out counts.